Closing Time

Closing time - time for you to go out, go out into the world.
Closing time - turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time - one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time - you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

It's day 4 of the new phase of my life called 'unemployed' and I'm still a bit antsy. I'm used to not doing anything only on the weekends and now the rest of my unscheduled days are stretched out before me.

I've been out of the house running errands for the last couple of days so I don't really notice it. Today, it looks like I'll be stuck in the house and all the more that the thoughts of my earning some income's been rattling my brain even more.

At the same time, I'm also thankful that I'm now getting a break. I've been working for 6 years straight and I am spent. In my heart of hearts, I am kind of envious of my two sisters. They both took some time off after graduating college before they started working and well, I was reporting for work a week or two before I graduated. After all I've been through the last couple of years -- near bankruptcy, office interpersonal relationship disasters and everything else -- I am just spent.

I think I have had the chance to really think things through on what I really want to do with my life but somehow, my coming into this situation now tells me otherwise. There are so many things that I wanted to do as a little kid and somehow I managed not to do any of those when I chose to step into the "responsible adult" phase.

I'm now considering this to be a sacred time -- time to figure out where next I'll be headed in spite of all the uncertain path that lies ahead of me. I hope I finally figure it out before committing myself to something for the next couple of years. I don't know yet if I'll be employed or I'll strike out on my own doing my own thing (business maybe or finally going into a career in fashion) but whatever's going to be the best for me, I trust & believe in the wisdom of the universe.